Thursday, April 29, 2010

Silken lies

Ther comes a point in our lives,
where the person we love,
tells us bare faced lies.
to keep things hidden
and us by their side.
As time goes by,
we start to see throught those lies.
Especially when we start to cry inside
we no longer start to feel like standing by their side
It those colorful lies that help us see
where their heart truely lies inside
with you ..... or in somthing else
They always said they'd be there
that they'd care
but that turn out to be
the first lie
inside our hearts, we start to cry
and die a little more inside
each day they tell another
lie
Inside i knew we could have been
it was a greet time,
those moments
now memories
I knew thats how it was planned to be
but somwhere along they forgot
our song
those silken lies have become so slick
it makes me sick to hear them
Myself esteeme has kept me strong
to survive
to read between the lines
of mulitudeness lies
No longer will I cry
for the past I have cast aside
as I rise above
the silken lies
Before another lie
makes me cry inside agian
i will smile
and see the light



xxx (:Music:) xxx

i luv music... it is my life .. .so i thought that i'd just post bout it... so here you go music


music is truth
whether it is beautiful or sad
she will never lie to me
her words are innocent and pure

music is always there
in hard moments
and in joyess moments
she will never leave me

music is the party in my head
the beat of my heart
the grace of my motion
I may be ephermal but she is not

Music is accepting
she sings to all
she does not judge
she sets the bar ...
and sets it low

music is my love
my passion
my other half
and last breath

music is my voice
she says it all
she saves me when i am fallin
she is my angel

Music
you can find her anywhere
whether she is spoken
hummed
or whispered

Music is rock
screamo
rap
alternative

Music lifts me up
patches together all my broken peices
she steals my pain away
leaves me numb

Music is my inspiration
she reminds me who i am
renews my soul
and gives me hope
to live just 1 more day

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Egytian Meth Hunny

I'm not really sure why they call it Egytian meth cause it isn't even meth... anyways it can be made with some very common household items. Here is a list of the items along with the instructions on how to make these things. I'm not sure if you can just use the hallucigen by itself or not ... or if you have to come down before its just part of the instrustions I got

20 easy steps to Egytian meth ( part 1)
  1. Get a bag of fresh step kitty litter.
  2. Seperate all the little blue things out
  3. Hydrogine proxide
  4. Put the hydrogine poroxide in a 2 liter bottle
  5. Iodine
  6. Add 25 drops to the 2 litter bottle
  7. Insert a plastic sergical tube
  8. Place the blue things in it but dont let them go down yet
  9. Place a balloon on the end of the tube
  10. Let blue thingys fall into mixture
  11. They should react and cause the balloon to inflate
  12. Put a gallon of distilled water into a bucket
  13. Add 3 cups of Epsom salts
  14. Add ice
  15. Take the end of the tube out of the 2 litter bottle
  16. DO NOT RELEASE THE GAS!!!
  17. Put the open end of tube in water mixter
  18. let the gas in the tube flow out into water mixture
  19. when it's done pour water mixture through a coffee filter
  20. let it dry && snort it(: haha

12 easy steps to Hillbilly Qualudes (comin down) (part 2)

  1. A bottle of vitamin C tablets all smashed up
  2. A gallon of white vinegar
  3. Boil vinegar
  4. Add crushed vitamin C
  5. Add a box of baking soda to nutralize acid (should bubble)
  6. Cook on George foreman grill for 40 min
  7. Scrape burnt parts into a jar
  8. Add a bottle of magnesium citrate
  9. Shake well
  10. Pour through a britta filter
  11. Add a shot of pepto - bismol ( to avoid vomitting)
  12. Drink

10 easy steps for the Hallucigen (part 3)

  1. 5 little bottles of hand sanitizer into empty bowl
  2. Freeze over night
  3. Scrape top top layer next day
  4. Scrape of the top of matches onto a plate ( until there is a small pile)
  5. Put match top stuff into a jar of distilled water
  6. Shake
  7. blend in a blender the water mixture and sanitizer
  8. pour into glass bowl
  9. set the mixture on fire
  10. inhale heat vapor

Sunday, April 25, 2010

I'll Do What I Have To .... Jut for You


I'll cry for you,

I'll bleed for you,

I'll do whatever I need to,

Just for you.



To make you love me,

To make you care,

To make you wonder,

Why I do these things I do.



Your all I want,

And everthing I need,

I dream the dreams,

Just for you.



So please take my hand,

Tell me you'll always be there,

Say you won't leave me,

No matter what goes on.



What am I talking about,

"I will" is a has been,

I'm already bleeding for you,

Isn't that enough,

What more do you want?



I'm sorry I do these things,

That I dont dance in the rain,

But I cry in it,

Just for you.



I've spent my life,

Waiting, Wanting, Willing,

Believing, Becoming, and Bleeding

Just for you.



I gave you my heart,

You hid it in shame,

Now I'll make it disappear,

Just for you



I'll give you your wish

So here it is,

This bullet,

It just for you




Remember.....


Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground???

When the only protection you were concerned about was wearing a helmet??

When the worst thing you could get from boys were cooties??

Dad's shoulders were the highest place on earth and mom was your hero??

Your worst enemies were you siblings??

Race issues were about who could run faster??

When war was only a card game??

the only drug you knew was cough medicine??

When wearing a skirt didn't make you a .....??

When the worst word you knew was that word you dad used while fixing somthing??

The only thing that hurt were your scrapped up knees ??

We just couldn't wait to grow up. Don't you wish you'd take life seriously??

Life's too short to wake up one morning with regrets.

So love the people who treat you right, Forget about the ones who don't

and believe that everything happens for a reason.

Believe in yourself.

Believe in a God.

Believe in your morals.
Whatever you do just believe, just do it for the thrill.

If you get a chance, take it.

If it changes life, let it.

If it takes it, fight it.

Nobody said it would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it.

Saturday, April 3, 2010

! Easter !

I absolutly love easter. Aside from the whole beautiful colors and easter bunny concept, there are so many great meanings and symbols to it. its just so powerful.. haha i really don't feel like writing right now ... so instead I'm just ognna show my passion for spring and easter with images, since everyone knows pictures are worth a million words.















Friday, April 2, 2010

The 100 + things

Lately I've been thinkin about people dying... mostly because I've just seen my 3 favorite movies recently. ( the blind side, the Ultimate gift, and Across the Universe) so i figured that i don't wanna be that old lady tellin kids with regret that they should go out and live their lives. No i wanna be that lady who had the time of her life as a young adult and child, but still was able to make a life for herself. Tellin the kids " your only young once". I wanna live my whole life like I'm dying. So basically I wanna live life with no regrets and do everything i want to do to the best of my ability. In order to remember it all i thought I'd just put them down here. That way they are 4ever in stone. well not quite but. Something i can look back on and check off and reminisce with when in like 40, 50 years. So here it goes, be prepared to be here awhile. I have high hopes and dreams for myself.


  1. Skydiving




  2. Bungee Jumping




  3. Go to Hollywood




  4. Live in 90210




  5. Learn to Break dance




  6. C ~ walk




  7. Sing Screamo




  8. Live in Austerlia




  9. Be confident in myself




  10. Rainbow hair




  11. Streaking




  12. Skinny dipping




  13. Make a Million $




  14. Go to College




  15. House Party




  16. Travel to Africa




  17. Between the Trees Concert




  18. New York Holiday




  19. Make over my Fear of the Ocean




  20. Try all drugs




  21. Work in a Zoo




  22. Kiss in the Rain




  23. Perfect picnic




  24. Own 3 exotic animals




  25. Write a song




  26. Date a Scene boy




  27. Prom queen




  28. Visit every U.S State




  29. Cheerleader




  30. Star on Degrassi




  31. Pole Dance / Stripper




  32. Get Married




  33. Donate 5 gal of blood




  34. Visit the Foutian of Love




  35. Become Manager




  36. Spend a nite/week in Jail




  37. Dance in a Thunderstorm




  38. Bench 145 lb.




  39. Model




  40. Be my kids Best Friend




  41. Live in the Playboy Mansion




  42. Learn to Quilt




  43. Loose 15 lb.




  44. Stretch All the way in the Splits




  45. Ride an Elephant




  46. Meet Escape the Fate




  47. Live in Europe




  48. Be Best Friends With Paris




  49. Chill with Eminem




  50. Change Someone's Life




  51. Learn to Play any Guitar




  52. Kiss a Girl




  53. Smoke 5 bowls




  54. Meet my Mom




  55. Own a Great Dane




  56. Sleep beneath the Stars




  57. Aquire an Italian accent




  58. Speak French




  59. Own a Ranch




  60. Have Kids




  61. Grow a garden




  62. Million $ shopping Spree




  63. Loose control




  64. Be in a Parade




  65. Join a Band




  66. Learn to Crochette




  67. Breakdown in someone's arms




  68. Screw someone's life




  69. Paint a Master peice




  70. Be in a Music Video




  71. Change my Name




  72. Own a Clothing line




  73. Get a boob job




  74. Have a Life long best friend




  75. Become a victum of Somthing bad




  76. Keep a dirty secret




  77. Aquire patientes




  78. Have Lushes hair




  79. Be in a commercial




  80. Save an Anmial's life




  81. Be unpreddictable




  82. Be in a movie




  83. Not Care what People think




  84. Be in a gang




  85. Be an Artist of a Famous Quote




  86. Love God with All my Heart




  87. Be a Heart breaker




  88. Own a Yacht




  89. Stay a Gymnast




  90. Sail down the Amazon




  91. Live on San juan Islands




  92. Have a Fish tank wall




  93. Becoma an idol




  94. Dont judge




  95. Become a positive person




  96. Own a porshe




  97. Have 5 mansions




  98. Have a record Label




  99. Have an Enormos Wardrobe




  100. Fall in Love